Makeup Inspiration

My dress is way to "stand out" to not do full-on make-up. I bought MAC stay on lipstick that actually lasted through my test (having a nap and kissing James) so I'm pretty excited about the makeup for the day.

I've really been going wild with the Mad Tea Party Theme lately. I want a very "fantasy/faerie" feel to it -- in addition to the vampire stuff -- so these are my inspirations as of late.

Fashion

This was my original Inspiration Board. I love each and every item on it. The dress, tiara, and ring are all the actual items we will be using.

I will be wearing this necklace instead of the "Heart of the Ocean" inspired heart. It is a pink sapphire which James bought for me for Christmas.

I have not yet been able to acquire my dream shoes (Betsey Johnson "Merri") but I am still holding out hope. If I can't have those then these are the next best thing. James hates calf-height boots so granny boots were out of the question. When I saw these I knew they were perfect -- they had the right amount of "vintage-y witchy-ness" for me but the ankle height that James likes. The ribbon in the picture is just for show. I'm procrastinating purchasing the $12 a roll double-sided 1 inch thick red satin ribbon I will be using.

Wedding Hair

I haven't decided yet whether my hair will be up & messy or down & wavy but these are some of my inspiration pix:

I am most excited about my tiara which matches my dress beautifully:

I will be wearing a veil as well, similar to this style but in a deep red organza:

This was my first attempt at "wedding hair":

Wedding Decor

Our wedding theme is Gothic-Vampire-Faerie-Summer Solstice-Celtic Dream........ You get the picture. I am hoping for something regal and fancy but with a great summer party feel. So far our decor consists of tulle & faerie lights to hang in the trees, red glossy plate chargers with vanilla pillar candles and hurricane lamps as our centrepieces, and....... well I guess that's really it for now. I have lots of ideas (Chinese lanterns, red/black/pink table cloths, napkins and dishes) but we don't really have the $$$ to get any of it yet. We also aren't quite sure where we are going to seat these people (we haven't arranged tables and chairs yet) but James says he will "take care of it"......

my wonderful man

oh james.... the man who makes it all worthwhile. I didn't know what was missing until he was back in my life. I wandered and wondered and nothing seemed to work. I guess I just needed time to grow up. It seems he (and my mum) knew we would end up together but had they told me before, I wouldn't have believed it. I don't think I was a woman worthy of him back then. Sometimes I still don't. He is more beautiful than any person I have ever met. He treats me like a goddess and an angel and respects me and adores me. In return I take him for granted and give him random moments of absolute, all encompassing love. I wish he knew how much I love him and how much I hate myself for not treating him as well as he treats me. I just don't think I am capable of it. He treats me like a princess and I think I act like one in return. He is just so selfless compared to me. I wish I could show him how much I love him but I am so selfish that I always seem to put myself and my needs first. In the abstract I am selfless and giving and some people even seem to think that I am. I have every intention of being the perfect girlfriend/fiance/wife but I come off as a selfish brat who lashes out in anger and frustration. I try really hard, which leads to the previously mentioned moments of all-encompassing love but I sometimes wonder if he will get sick of the scattered tempo of my devotion and just say, "screw it.... I'm out"

oooo.... she's a blogger now

So kids, here's blog post number one. I though maybe I needed a place to put all of my ramblings and thoughts and plans and schemes. So... here goes something........